The daisies tremble in the wind
The daisies stand, alone, but underneath the ground their roots are entangled, holding each other, growing together. No daisy grows alone. Perhaps we too, hold each other’s hands underneath the soil, quantumly entangled, stretching across the world.
I lay in a field by my hostel in Brussels. I was supposed to meet a friend but he hasn’t gotten back to me. He told me he would show me all the best places in Belgium. Maybe he will.
8 days until I fly home. One long flight back in time. I will know more hours of daylight than anyone. I sigh in relief to think of it. I sob with desire. I will put this dream on hold until I can return, not alone. I thought I am better at being alone than not alone. I am better at being not alone.
I will come home and dive into the Atlantic Ocean and avoid my father and my grandmother and my grandfather and my high school peers and anyone who has ever tried to tell me what to do. I will watch the stars with my sister and I will write a story with my friend and I will hold her dog because he lets me. I will eat good food and sleep in a bed and I won’t have to pay for it.
In August, I’ll return to California and you’ll be gone (ugh!) but then you’ll come back. We’ll all be together like daisies trembling in the wind, holding hands in the soil. What’s good about missing is the running back into someone’s arms knowing they will stay, and telling them everything, having so much to say. Like the end of a war, or an impossibly long day.
I am reading a marvelous book called On Earth We’re Briefly Gorgeous - I impart my highest seal of recommendation.
Let’s sing and dance and talk and watch TV and watch movies and read and grow gardens and pet cats and eat and feed each other and write and make art forevermore!
How are you, Gabrielle? How is it with everyone gone? How do you spend your days?
If you’re ever yearning to see the city, or even the island; when I’m back I would be happy to have you. Either way, California waits like a golden promise.
I think you will have a beautiful time in Athens. I’m very excited for you. Z, Casey and Jenna will be there around that time, I don’t know if you know them.
